holla.. if only we had blogs like 4 or 5 years ago.. i’d jump at the chance and will start typing and typing at every chance i got… because the idea of blogging is very appealing.. would have been very appealing..
ever since I could remember I’ve always had a diary… at home underneath my bed I have this big box labeled “diaries”.. I have entries from when I was in elementary school, mostly entries such as.. today is my birthday and blablabla.. or I hate my brother my mother my friend or anyone because of blablabla.. they’re very embarrassing to read, still…
And then I have organizers whose calendar pages are filled with daily journals and sketches.. Oooh I even had this one diary filled until the end of me and my then bestfriends in high school.. and off course they are all very embarrasing to read.. still..
I guess my point from all the chit chat above is that I loved to write.. it didn’t even have to make any sense.. it was just a big relief for me to put my words down on to something..
So why is it that I was still not attracted to write blogs.. It’s probably been, I don’t know, like a year since friendster gave out this blog service? and off course there had been other blog services around even before friendster..
And the very idea of blogs itself would’ve tempted me.. then.. to think that you can blabs all the way and share it to the world.. and the fact that friends and friends wannabe can comment into each other’s blogs.. would’ve been amazing..
But why oh why was I still not attracted to blog?? okay.. oh well.. I think because it would’ve been too weird.. why?? because to me a journal is something that you can express your entire thoughts and emotions… and by writing it in a blog, especially this friendster one.. it has to be censored.. why?? well for one my sister is here.. my very sweet adorable naive little sister is online people and she’s sooo devoted to friendster.. and then there’s my cousins.. oh yes my cousins and uncles and aunts are here.. I’m not talking about those cousins whose age are near to mine.. I’m talking about those whose age is faaaar way younger than me.. that I still have to be a model to them.. that makes me have to edit out everything that has any relation whatsoever to any r-rated stuffs.. I’m not saying that they’ll definitely read any of my crap.. but i just wasn’t ready to take any chances..
and then there’s also the added fact that ever since I dated “r” I had stopped writing.. I think it’s because that I was able to blabs all around him nonstop that I have no more words to put down..
oh yes off course there’s this small fact that I was forced to blog during my postgraduate course.. but it’s not the fun kind of blogging.. it’s the chore kind.. the kind of blog that has to be backed up with extensive research and discussions.. makes the word “blog” itself a terror to my classmates and me..
So why do I start blogging now?? hehehe.. because it’s the start of world cup.. and my husband’s been hogging the TV.. and I’m soo bored to death..
